Piper Rain

Never been invited to my house?

And wondered why?

I used to LOVE my house

and then I didn't!

For a really long long time.

Relationships, depression,

socializing too much, playing on the lake...

(paddling?)

seemed I was always running

away from home!

Just didn't want to be here!

Day after day looking around

I couldn't see its beauty

only what I had let GO

...for far too long,

only what needed trimming, repair,

paint, patching, replacing

So overwhelmed

all I could do was stare emptily

at my surroundings

and wonder where to start?

Would have still been wondering

if it hadn't been for some

delightful interventions,

(so to speak.)

A paddling friend drops me off

after trying out our boards

insists to see inside...hmmm?

Since she is rather shy, this is big...

she had seen a pic of my renovated studio

and doesn't appear as if she

was going to take no as an answer

(like those before her had.)

So, I acquiesced and

she is charmed...beyond charmed?

And I am beyond surprised.

When she leaves after long witty insightful

dialogue

I am invigorated all at once,

realizing it has been a year and a half

since anyone has sat with me here,

(actually since Jennifer's

last visit!)

I begin to see my surroundings differently

and began to embrace

or shall we say re-embrace my space.

Metaphorically,

I put the claim flag in the ground

and say "okay, this is mine."

My home is old, shabby in ways,

not modern, more "track home-ish"

and certainly not formal

more like an adult play house,

like the ones I built in the woods at ten

only difference?...

This ones not free,

or built with bent nails

my grandfather gave me,

no big gaps of lght in the walls

and there is a street rather

than a path and of course the bills and...

but other than that?

It may be a step up from "a fort!"

When someone commented it

was like Pee Wee's Hermans house

I really, wasn't SURE it

was a compliment.

But what if it is...what if IT

is a extension of who I am?

(not Pee Wee but unconventional creative,

playful?

more silly then serious?)

Shouldn't it be?

Isn't that the best part of growing up?

We get to do whatever we want

and we get to watch how our childselves

find our

adult selves and stand back

and watch them play together

sometimes just for the fun of it all?

Another new friend,

who had read and bought everything

I'd written before being friends,

said she wanted to see my backyard cause I

had formally stated

(years ago) it was

"my greatest masterpiece"

I cringed...well not so much anymore.

Intended to be a place for poets,

woman gathering to write and be wild

get naked (well, not really, I have neighbors...)

but in manner of speaking...

but the only wild things happening here now

is all the stuff I over planted going wild

like an animated jungle out of control.

My idea of "woods" in the desert!

And then came the Facebook request for

a client/friend to bring by an out of town friend

...REALLY?

Are you kidding me?

I allowed it and then actually

encouraged it.

We had a lovely visit and they left with

ideas of their own for her

smaller "new beginnings" space.

We were all inspired!

I was over the hump and

looking around at the possibilities.

So with renewed " attitude for

my humble abode"

I plan to explore how this may be

a better, happier

reflection of me!

And see where a little love

and attention and a lot of work

goes!

And a week of nothing necessary

on my schedule

it was "operation embrace the space"

and instead of Pee Wee Herman playhouse

I decided to think

Alice in Wonderland...instead.

Well, Alice meets Dr Seuss and Van Gogh

on the way to the Safari Circus,

it seems!

With money kind of tight and

the equity line tapped...

going to have to be very very creative...

fix what I might have thrown away before,

and see what I can find for free!

Always thought Havasu should

have a home tour of artist studios,

and maybe this is how it begins?

Gotta run, have lots to do

look for your invite in the mail...!

Cause everyones coming for a swing,

poetry readings or a walk thru

the Labryinth!

Stay tuned for the new developments!

Pam Piper Rain